.:Rant:.

Monday, June 12, 2006

feeling detached from reality... == sigh.
just don't want to go back to school. i mean, i'm sure a lot of people feel this way, but currently, school seem so pointless... and i don't even want to step into the school compound... ><
damn it all.
for some obscene reason beyond the comprehension of my ever so simple brain, my parents seem to think that my life is all sunshine. gah. i wish it was so. and then because of that, they get irritated with me for no reason at all. i know it doesn't seem to make sense... actually it does, it's just that i cannot be bothered to elaborate... ><
sometimes i wish that i could be justified to hate them... >< i know it's evil and mean and whatsoever, but heck. do i look as if i give a damn. i think i'm pmsing, but i don't suppose anyone cares.
i mean, yar. i know i'm supposed to be grateful that i do have a family yada yada, but i seriously need something to vent my frustrations out on. [yar. and this is the part where some smartass would ask, "what frustrations?"] whoever the smartass may be, just shut the hell up and go away if you think i have the wrong attitude. i'm angsting here.
nowadays, i just look at them and ooh... what a nice and happy family they make. but i guess i do insist on splattering mud all over the picture. ha. no one ignores my existence and get away with it. [though i tend to question otherwise most of the time...]
oh. and my sis is being a big fat stupid bitch. what. she is one okay. i don't care how cutsie or sweet she may seem to others. she's a bitch. enough said. [the fact that my parents pamper her non-stop does NOT help at all. even though they would deny with their life that they ever pampered her royal ass.] gah.

















che. this will be teh first time i'll ever admit that i'm slow, but heck. cos it seriously took me long enough to realise that no matter how much i put in and what the shit, i'll never be good enough for them. but i'm so not going to let that stop me from trying. cos guess what. i wanna prove them wrong. [easier said than done, dammit.]

so i shall end this uh... super self-contradictory post... >< like i said, i'm pmsing.

3:42 AM