.:Rant:.

Monday, May 22, 2006

everything feels so wasted currently... i mean, i know i should be a lot more happier than some other poor souls out there, but all the same. i mean after all, we are a species that do not understand the meaning of satisfaction. gah.
maybe it's just be, but caffaine kicks in at the wierdest of times. after drinking a double shot of coffee and tea with like a lot of sugar in it, i was still damn drowsy when i'm supposed to be mugging chem. then just as i was about to go to sleep, which was just some time before, i suddenly feel damn awake. maybe it's just chem. ^^ but i insist there's something wrong with the coffee mix my mom bought. i do NOT trust coffee mix with 50% less sugar. i mean, those are plain evil.
so, now that i can't sleep, maybe i should go back to studying. at least until 0230. i mean, it's best if i cram in as much as possible as early as possible. otherwise, i'll never get anything done.
oh. and i think i have a permenant headache haunting me. and it strikes at the most inappropraite times. damn. and on top of that, i think i'm on permenant pms too. now, isn't that fun.
haven't touched photoshop for a damn long time. argh. 手痒痒的... cannot stand it. but i shall have integrity and peserverance... ==
gah. i'm seriously starting to regret coming to this school. i mean, i know very well that i cannot make it one. so why did i decide to make things difficult for myself so many years ago is way beyond my comprehension. i guess it was all those expectations... == so now. turned into a freaking mugger... sigh.
that day during training, evidently there was this madman carrying a knife around that area, then this unfortunate guy came down from the elevator and got kena hacked... of course i wasn't unfortunate enough to witness it, but can hear from passer-bys... needless to say, training was more or less pointless that day. but after that, i was thinking... ten years down the road, would i end up like that....
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okay... maybe not that drastic, but don't be surprised if i happend to land up in some asylum... >< [and certain people would then take this opportunity to point out that i already have the qualifications for a one-way trip to such a place...]
gah. maybe i should go back to mugging chem. i'm scaring myself by how mugger i've become... how...
something seriously went wrong with my life... ==

10:25 AM