.:Rant:.
Saturday, April 01, 2006
sanqian, can i appeal that you come online more often? i really miss chatting with fellow rp personalities... == yep. after blogging for quite a few entries in chiese, i have decided to revert back to english... cos i feel like it, but the next entry might be chinese once more... ^^ anyways [i think shuhui's rubbing off me quite badly...], for those that couldn't view my previous entries, just chance your encoding to unicode... yepp. sigh... i really feel damn sadded... was listening to the batch recording... right after i listened to the professional recording... == not a very smart thing to do, as most can tell... felt like smashing my head right into the wall right then and there. sometimes i find it very unfair that some people could play so well... then again, they put in all their effort. only less than 5 days before cadenza. i shouldn't say anymore. gah. who cares. okay... ranting... ... ... not that you read my blog or anything, but can you seriously, seriously please practice. i know i've already mentioned this in my previous post, but heck. some people might not even know how to change thier encoding, or like a certain someone [looks pointedly], computer cannot read chinese... == so, anyway, can you please practice. take it that i'm begging you... if not, you might as well just quit, since technically speaking, you're not making any contributions at all. ... ... i know i shouldn't put the blame of specific people and stuff, but sometimes i just can't help it. but i don't think anyone's ever seen him so angry before. i was half expecting him to just walk out of the band room and everyone breaking down... i can imagine that happening during cadenza... >< okay. i think i'm asking for a slap here... sometimes i can really imagine her coming during band prac, listening to us, and telling us straight in the face that we suck... argh. i seriously can't take it anymore. i think i'm overthinking... now i'm starting to think i've gotten 'rathi's phobia of thinking... i mean, with things the way they are nowadays, the moment i start thinking, band and all kinds of depressing stuff start popping up. sometimes i seriously think of quitting... but the thing is, i will never let myself live it down if i've already stayed until now and just give up when i'm already slightly more than half way through... besides, i highly doubt that i'll ever pick up the instrument after i graduate, that i'll ever make music[noise] in a band anymore... okay... that's a bit far... sigh. but then again, maybe i should leave. gah. shan't say anything more in that area... i think there's something seriously wrong with me, i mean even looking a certain pics/videos can't cheer me up... sigh. maybe i'm just too involved currently. life is really damn sadded recently. bleah. [um... i think i need a larger variety of sentence structure...] come to think about it, listening to the batch recording right after the professional one is practically asking for suicide... don't know what i was thinking, but i was definitely not even thinking about comparing the two... >< [though i tend to question who would actually even consider doing that...] yepp. che. shall stop thinking... ><>< so weird. oh wells.
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