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Tuesday, March 07, 2006
okay... now i am kinda sorta majorly freaked. not counting band camp, we only have like 2 more band pracs. okay... maybe i should stop reminding. then again, i'm sorta majorly pissed with some comments read on certain blogs. i mean, come on, do they seriously think they can make it with such standard!? okay. i may be a hypocrite here, since, technically, i'm not exactly considered good either. but at least, i know that. alright. they know that they're not very good too. but they seem to believe that they can make it. okay... in that case, at least i know the extent of what i can/not do. argh. so irritating. and guess what? their entries and their actions never seem to match... == that sad or what. anyway, yepp. me still thinking about 209... sanqian, i insist its all your fault. i don't know, but sometimes i'm getting constantly irritated with my class for no apparent reason. so okay. maybe unable to go on that smoothly with the class' my fault. i'm sorry then. i'm sorry for being unable to move on from the past. but seriously, there doesn't exactly feel as if there's anyone whom i can really hang out with, without the person starting to dislike me more and more and more. sometimes i feel as if i just can't be myself. and there are certain people who are seriously damn annoying... okay... better stop... starting to approach bashing area... oh. and having certain screwed up teachers doesn't help at all either. okay. i mean, maybe i don't have that much to complain about since my class did get the 'better' combo of science teachers, but... argh. nevermind... i was just thinking of my english teacher and then all the newspaper articles came to mind... == heck. okay... this is seriosly sad. anyway, i cannot stand quite a number of teachers... sigh. i don't give a damn if it seems as if i can't move away from the past, maybe i just can't. but, seriously, the past was so much better. i really wished that time had stopped at speech and drama nite last year... argh. dammit. anyway, i'm so sorry for not being good enough. i'm so sorry if i screwed so many things up. i'm so sorry for not being there for so many times. i'm so sorry if what i'm doing is completely wrong. i'm so sorry if i'm such a big screw up.
i really wanted cadenza to be a success, i really want to make things happy and all that. i really want the sec4s concert to be a success and everything... but i'm so sorry... why does things have to turn out this way!?!?